What makes us Christians? Is it how we speak? How we act? If someone were to ask you what makes you a Christian, what would you say? What is the common preception of Christianity that we are building?
I do not need to quote stuff from the Bible, you all can read by yourself, but i think the proper question is: am i a christian? This one will provoke many people but i think that we are not christians if we haven’t had a personal experience with God. People are called Christians because they follow and do what He did and moreover, walk through life with Him and according to His will and i do not know how a person can figure out life with Christ if he has not even met Him.
That is surely a high standard to live with and much work is needed to achieve that, so as for the mean time, we could mimic what He did, just like a child copying what his dad does even when he hasn’t know his name nor if he is his dad, all he knows is that he is a man that i should respect for there is this mysterious force that links me and him and so i need to obey Him.
Numbers 16:12-15 (NET) Then Moses summoned Dathan and Abiram, the sons of Eliab, but they said, “We will not come up. Is it a small thing that you have brought us up out of the land that flows with milk and honey, to kill us in the wilderness? Now do you want to make yourself a prince over us? Moreover, you have not brought us into a land that flows with milk and honey, nor given us an inheritance of fields and vineyards. Do you think you can blind these men? We will not come up.” Moses was very angry, and he said to the Lord, “Have no respect for their offering! I have not taken so much as one donkey from them, nor have I harmed any one of them!”
Talking from my life, let me give you a sneak peek of what are the things that are on my shoulders right now. I am doing this not to show you guys how busy i am, or how stressed i am, to be clear i hate pitiful behaviour, the begging of empathy from other people. But instead i’ll share these for the sake of openness and support, but moreover to explain how Christ work in the background in all things to bring good to those who love Him.
First of all, tomorrow i am having my SAT maths and physics please pray for me. I am also studying for NTU NUS enterance examinations, quick note: i am currently at the bottom of the score list for the weekly tryouts amongst all BuKsi students. Besides the singaporean univs my parents also exhort me to apply us and taiwan universities. I am also working on other smaller random things like my reccomendation letters, essays, portfolios. Besides university stuff me and all of you need to study chem and do homeworks as well as prepare for the national exam. Everyweek i also need to lead +- 20 people in church and man do i dislike that job. Besides all of that i and 16 other arts and design students need to finish the yearbook before april next year in the midst of all the business. Not proud not bragging but apparently i am the president of the whole thing and i need to lead 16 students, lazy and diligent, wise and foolish. Do not think that leading is a fun job my friends, i’d prefer sitting down in the place of a member and talk to her and laugh and build reputation instead of being a thin, walking here snd there bossy prick who stammers when he speaks.
I procrastinate once in a whil not because i am lazy, i am not lazy. But i am quite unsure of where i am going. As a result i stress and seek immediate momentary pleasure.
Now, as i’ve said, i am not bragging but once in a while one needs to tell the world what one is facing for the sense that somebody listens and care although probably only 2 or 3 people will read this or any other devotion that i make for they are long and unstructured.
Eveyday i felt like quitting but everyday to i find a reason to continue. And that is the faith that Christ has prepared me my part in this world. A place where i will function according to my purpose and i will keep on walking to see His plan unravel. He is the reason i am still moving. Maybe i’m not running, maybe i am to weak to jog, but i will never stop moving, even though i felt like quitting, everyday.